Dan sebenarnya.

Masuk hari ni dah dua hari demam.Punca demam..? I don't know.Entah macam mana tiba-tiba boleh demam.Tapi, memandangkan aku memang jenis antibody tak kuat, daripada kecik lagi always demam.Demam tanpa ada sebab musabab pulak tu.Since dua hari dah sakit, makan pun tak lalu.Ohh, dah dua hari aku tak makan nasi! Nikmat nak makan nasi tu xde.Bagilah benda lain pun, sama jugak.Tak boleh nak makan.Sakit tak teruk pun cuma sakit kepala and hilang selera makan.On the other side, aku bersyukur jugak.Tak makan nasi dua hari membawa maksud kalori dalam badan juga tak bertambah.Yang ni best (:


Ingat lagi masa minggu final yang lepas, dua kali demam.First demam masa paper Electronic II.Sekejap je demam.Bila dah elok bukan main, tiba-tiba sakit balik masa paper Machine.OMG.Hanya Tuhan yang tahu macam mana terseksanya demam masa final.Kalau sekali boleh terima lagi.Kalau sampai dah dua kali, macam ada something wrong.Tapi alhamdulillah.Semuanya okay.Even demam masa tu pun, dapat overcome segalanya dengan baik (:


Heavennya kalau sakit kat rumah ni.Ada orang care.Tak macam duduk dekat sana.Susah sikit sebab nak kena bergerak ke sana sini lagi.Duduk rumah ni, everytime ada je orang datang tanya "demam lagi ke..?", "nak makan apa..? abah pegi belikan".Pagi tadi angah masuk bilik tanya, "demam ke..?".See.Terasa jugak dihargai.At least la kan.Takde lah terbiar macam tu je.


Last night, hurm.Sedikit kecik hati.Ohh, honestly.Sedikit sahaja.You know, the moment when your beloved one choose to watch the movie over taking care of you.I wait for him for such a long time, I guess.About one hour.Err..until I fall asleep.He call me after one hour.I'm so not in mood at that time.He talked to me but I just gave him cold reaction.Totally got nothing to say.Sampai ada satu tahap tu, I wanna tell him, "boleh tak kalau kita tak tidur sambil on call malam ni..? i just don't feel like doing it". I keep saying that sentence.Tapi, aku tak berani nak cakap dengan dia macam tu.You know, nanti kes lain pulak yang timbul.But you know, I am trying.Cuba jugak untuk cakap perkataan tu kat dia.Aku punya fikir tu sampailah aku tertidur.Tak sempat cakap dekat dia.Bangun pagi tadi, rasa bersyukur sangat sebab tak cakap macam tu semalam.


You know, it's just me.For being too sensitive over nothing.Bukan salah dia pun.He got his own life.Tak fair kalau tiba2 aku nak marah dia sebab dia pentingkan tengok movie lagi daripada layan aku.HAHA.I'm such a cry baby, kan..? Tapi tu lah.Sebagai perempuan, you should know.When she really needs you, you have to be there for her.She might say that you can go on with your stuff and all, but deep here inside, she really needs someone to talk to and comfort her.Especially when she is being sick or else (:


I am sorry for everything.Sorry for being such a childish.Sorry for being this way.I am trying my best to be a strong girl from now on (:


And also, thanks a lot for your phone call last night.At least, i know that you still remember me (: